I'm feeling so defeated. I can't get past the feeling that I'm not eating well enough (I know I'm not...) or working out enough and I'll never be able to do a half marathon.
I haven't officially signed up for the 1/2 in January - and now I'm scared to put my money towards it. I'm not trained. I'm not in good enough shape. I'm going to look like a fool.
But I want this feeling:
I want to feel awesome once I'm done and be able to say I've done it. I want to be able to be proud of something that I've told myself I'll do. Maybe I should push this off until 2013.
I don't know what to do, but I'm just feeling really defeated right now.